my blog is getting on my nerves.. image don't pop up. :/

okay self-reflection ( self-reflection sehhhhh...):
sometimes i really wonder why.
while others i just ignore & try to.

i get very upset if anyone messes with my friends,
but honestly..at times.. i have no guts to voice out.
but i'll try my best to make my friend's smile.
this isnt a reflection afterall.
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i really ponder alot.. especially on the way home.
What Ifs...
Is it possible?
But then...
and thus.. concluding to answering..
It will never happen to me.
I have to work harder.
Stop thinking about it..
Concentrate!!
study and work before others(chants)

if i don't be hard on myself.. what will i learn?
how am i to survive fashion industry? how am i to organize a fashion show?
how am i to socialise when it's necessary? how am i to make a better life for my parents?
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know? i find myself into war films and gore.. i actually learn things from it..and think more.
no, not killing people..although honestly.. i did think like that for a period of time...
weird enough.... i get very worked up when it comes to animal abusing.
makes no sense right?
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i got hands and feet right?
i got ears, so i'll listen.
i stone alot.. and ponder..but not voice.

what am i talking....? i dunno.