sometimes i say things i don't intentially mean it.
most of the time i keep my thoughts bottled up.
it's like.. what's the point sharing when i'm just gonna make no sense to anyone?
i rather cry and get over with alone.. and out of people's eyes.
i find when i speak, i'm interrupting all the time.

i need to really stand on my own feet. ( for self & for future job purposes)
but then again i need occasional hugs from my girlfriends.
cause i do find hugs really comforting.

i know such thought if fuckin' stupid..but i on and off think myself as a worthless pile of shit.

i think alot of these things all the time..
so not normal for a human being like me ..is it?

i'm sucha screwed up kid.

but a happy one still..

I am mad. thank you.
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honestly i wonder..
i mean, who needs'em right?
like wth is The One? True Love? Love Forever?
i find it really cheesy and disturbing to hear "I'll love you forever".
it's prolly the "NOW" me that's having such thoughts.

i planned ahead of what's becoming of me..
is it ever possible i don't know till i try.

i like how crazy i get sometimes.. enough to scare the shit of all the guys. :D